memories...

simply starting to look through some old photos made me realise how much i've been shielding my mind from the memories subconsciously, even now...

i never knew i was someone to block off painful memories like this.

i needed to look thru those photos on my comp, but i just couldn't carry on, i could feel the memories coming back and i could feel the hurting start...

i'm used to looking at my hurts, handling them, experiencing them, and crying them out. but this time it's so different. looks like some hurts hurt too much for my heart to handle.

and looks like i was wrong when i thought my heart had healed.