hide me!! (long post - part 1!)

Urgh. First day in a uni comm service project thing, and am having "nice" reminders of how lousy i am at mixing with new people.

i mean, it was fun and most of the people were nice... but I really am not that good at popping my head into an ongoing conversation and joining it, or at striking a conversation with someone i hardly know. and when i DO do that, i always leave feeling horrible cos i think i made a bungling fool of myself. i know, i know, people don't think about other people as much as we usually think, but still...

funny eh? i like to think i understand people well, but i'm frightened (yes, frightened!) of meeting new people >_<

i might be imagining things but i sense alot of sensitivity abt BGR - it's as if the guys know that the girls know that most of the guys are just-out-of-army and super despo, so all conversation between opposite genders are a bit awkward. yeah yeah i think way too much...