difficult

have a very tough decision ahead of me. between, on one hand, carrying out a high-commitment-level task because my friends are there and because i have prepared very long for it, and, on the other hand, pulling out of the task because unhappiness with the apparent behaviour of the task's organizers mean i cannot carry out the task with 100% effectiveness, happiness and satisfaction.

a choice between honouring friends and prepation, and honouring my personal conscience and work satisfaction.

very, very difficult choice to make.