mere hint

i now know one reason i felt that icy burden...

it's cos there's something there my heart wants so much, but it's not in the least attainable in the foreseeable future, and it's so vague and elusive that i don't know if i should even try

and the worst part is that this is something that i can't tell anyone, other than by elusive and vauge posts, like this one, that although only hints at it, is enough to get the burden off my chest for a while

don't read too much into this btw - whatever you're guessing is probably wrong. like i said it's just here for me to unload a bit of the burden lol

:)